synapses // whatever

by cool american

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recorded summer 2015, more to come


released July 10, 2015

everything written and recorded by nathan except for the cool sounding guitar stuff on "whatever," that was tyler



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Track Name: synapses
climbed upstairs, looked into the mirror there
saw a speck of cigarette ash in my hair
sat around, listened to my breathing sound
watched a video i knew would not calm me down

I am trying not to crush whatever moments of composure i construct
I am trying not to break whatever tenuous connections i make
and I’m doing great

stay up late, feel my blood cells circulate
feel my synapses fire off, i feel small and i feel soft

crawl into bed, i dream fast and violent
i wake slowly and confused, an hour after you

I am trying not to hurt you and it’s worth the little effort I exert
but I can’t pick that lock now you’ve figured out I’m all talk
you’re still letting me walk
Track Name: whatever
i meant to let you know that i’d be there but i was moving slow
i try to leave the house, get held up by things i don't care about

this is new but you’re okay so we’re still cool, whatever i say

i meant to clarify that stupid thing i said when i was high
i know i’m pretty spaced, just hope that it’s not your time that i waste

it’s not hard not to take you for granted
it’s hard to say it in a way you’d understand it
i’m not usually someone who comes through
but i like you

i meant to call you up, i sat there staring in my coffee cup
i knew i couldn’t sleep, that i had things of yours i shouldn’t keep